upset weekend..

the long break has ended..but im glad to be back at work.. and thankfully in these very busy periods which i do not even have time to think about lunches, im glad.. there are piles and piles of work to be done.. to send the forms to finance, the update the control sheet for input of every student, the edutrust, the meetings, the trainings..

im just upset and i hope what i write in my blog will not be used against me in anyway.. but hey, its MY blog.. babelicious one.. if you dont like what you are reading, please close the window immediately as i am in a grouchy mood, upset mood..

been wondering if i am wrong in any way, which obviously i do not think so.. out of filial piety towards my parents in grace, i decided to go home on a weekend since i know i will be working OT the whole of next week.. but who knows she never understands my heart.. my innocent heart.. she mistaken.. and the worst she can do was to tell my hubby to be careful against me.. the exact words, xiao xin me.. better xiao xin.. that broke my heart.. so hurt.. i was alone on a saturday night. browsing through my msn who i can confide in.. dont want to call my friends to disturb their saturday so i sought Him, once again.. grace grace..

is it right to tell your child to be xiao xin against his/ her spouse? what is there to be xiao xin of? friends around me, even my colleagues say i spoil my husband.. what is there to be xiao xin of? im so upset... yes, im angry.. but more than anger i was upset.. i make breakfast for my hubb without fail every morning eversince the day we are married.. the days when im tired, i will buy his fave bao and steam it the next morning for him.. make bread with ham, thinking of innovative ways to his breakfast.. many asked me why dont just let him da bao breakfast? but i just want to make breakfast for him.. as an act of love? when i go grocery shopping, i always remember to buy his fave snacks, his jellies, his ice cream, must haves.. as i am always very watchful of what i eat, i never touch these at all.. when i found out from my food expert friend that eating hotdogs and ham is harmful.. i would steam chicken breast mix it with garlic powder and mayo as fillings for his sandwich..

i remembered i was busy working that day when she called to get my help to book an airticket for her domestic helper because going to the agent she had to spend an additional of 100 bucks.. she wanted me to book immediately but as i was working, i followed up closely the next 2 days as the website was down during the 2 days..

i remembered when she was upset, i offered her my place as a form of getaway and woke up at 7am the next day to accompany her for breakfast.. buying her food serving her.. more than how i treat my own mummy..

when all of them came over, i baked scones and made tea for their afternoon tea.. serving them with freshly baked scones to go with tea.. when i knew she likes to eat scones, i made it on a seperate ocassion to give her.. when i knew she was coming, i went to the market to buy durians and got hubby to carry the durians in the bags for her.. because eating durians straight from the shell is more tasty.. there is one ocassion whereby i made dinner for the whole family.. when they were watching tv.. after dinner, i had to wash all the dishes and woks myself..

i will always remember my duty.. i will continue to be filial to her.. fulfiling my duty.. i will learn to be more gracious, thank you Jesus..

i hope there will not be a day my hub said his r/s with her is strained because of me.. but well, ours is because of her.. but no matter what.. just know this.. i love you.. i chose to marry you.. and i hope we will continue to live happily as before..